cried tears

theres alot of changes around me,

you,them,her,him and my new life.

life is not about who you are,its about how you control it,

life is not about riches,not about governing,not about being cool.

life is a journey to where you'll be the one who feels perfect when the other person shows

in your life is your love :)

im here to tell

i met you 3 months ago,you're so gentle,so active,

yet you are so kind and so fun to be with.

you're the very best guy i ever knew,you light me up,you made me believe,

you encourage me every time i need it

i find my self afraid to fall in love,i find my self hiding from what i feel,

and i do 'once' believe that there will be no more love called for me.

but you're here now,

even though we're in a long distance relationship,

i dont mind. i believe in you,and my heart wont judge,my little heart says to me,

if you really love him,why wont you stop worrying?

and my brain start working,then i feel rite here,inside my heart

you're the one that I have been wanting to depend on.

im here to tell you i love you,i love how you say something,how you show you care,

how you show you think of me,and how you really loved me :)

you've been a very very very fun guy,and you said you love me,now we're in a relationship.

how happy am i,you wont believe it.

let me tell you,i dont care what they say about you,i wont care,at all!

i believe in you,but somehow i got to run from the truth,im sorry if i made you angry or anything,but there's still one thing i want you to know.. i want you to know my emotions.

but nobody's perfect,i hope you wont change your feeling to me,i hope we'll last forever,i wont forget what have happened yesterday,20.10.09

and i hope you doesnt play my heart

iloveyouaditya

y know what,i have to tell the truth,
that my life-sucks when you go,
i tried my hard as i hurt myself,with being not-myself
i tried to forget about the past,i tried to do anything to forget it..
but now,suddenly,theres someone that told me,he loves me,
and I see from all of he's word.. he did tell me,but once I dont trust him
last time,
He said so.. he ask me if I want to be his "gf",but i ignore it..
than now,in the past Wednesday,He ask me that question again...
and from that I know that He really likes me




but whatever God plan is,
I know what I will answer,I know,start from today,
I have to turn back to my own life,
I wanna be myself again,im gonna' let the past fade away,
I want to clear my life,I need something that can change me,

what is my fault?

Am I stupid?

why are you bullying me eith those words?

WHAT IS MY FAULT? i dont think that I ever did anything wrong to you..

you're friend told me that you think my writings which was "FUCK HIM" means you..

but Im being honest! ITS NOT YOU!

you started these whole thing..

you make me hate you,

you are being so annoying,

can we just stop? I doesnt want to have an enemy like YOU

this thing is ONE thing that I couldnt forget..

today is full of memories...
every minute I think of what I should think when you are right here,being mine..
I really want to get back eith you,I wanted it barely,
because i love you
even if I can tell,that you likes someone else,but my heart
sticks with you,only you..
I m only a big piece of mess!I cant woke up early in the morning,
I can barely think positive,and I cant also stop thinking of you...

can we just get back as we used to?

can you be my bestest person in my whole live world?

can we still be together,like the day we first knew each other?

If God would just give me ONE wish,I would wished that we can be together again..

like the time on that day..I know I loved you,and I know that you're still here,

and I know that my only wished is that,the most important wish...!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

honestly...Im super duper major BORED!

I can describe one feeling about you...

Im bored..you always asks the same question!

like HELL,yeahh...dont you have any ideas beside asking what Im doing??

ohh damn! Im bored to death,if Im damn bad,I would just tell the truth that Im major bored chatting with you...!

Im sorry

I dont,dont,dont even care...

im sorry I have to say "no"..

I know you will,will do the same mistakes like last time...

if you could be a better person,if you could be more caring,

somehow..I'll say "yes",but its enoughh..

I really,really had enough with all those complicated feelings being with you

you doesnt have to force yourself to love me,

I doesnt want any lie..thats all I really need..

is true?or is it only a word?

you.... you once are my everything,
you once are a part of my life...
you once make me feels like I dont need anything but you..
but...
you ONCE hurt me with all those break up words,
and I doesnt want to have that words breaking my tears 4 the second time

you said that you can keep me as a precious thing,
you said Im the only that makes your life easier...
but suddenly,you break me apart,
you make my tears fall from my eyes,
but now,you are begging me to come back to you
and start all of it again..
im confuse,with all your feelings all this time..
you said,that you really care for me..you said you like me because
Im good to you...is it truee??

theres only two answer..
rather its yes,or no..
if I answer yes,Im afraid of you letting me down again,
but if I say no..Im afraid if I will love you back when you didnt
what answer could I choose? that makes me feel free...
is it yes or no??

the truth being in love(2)

love sometimes,we put above everything,
love did exist...
love sometimes stays for a long time,but sometimes it just come and fly away
somewhere they can be free...
it takes time to realized that someone loves you more than you know...
it takes time to say the words "i love you"
it takes places if you really wanted someone that you care for...

'cause love tells what is on our mind

love made us realized how we care for each other,

love need some respect,love could barely hurt us

love oh love...its a big deal that can hurt a person..

love cant be predicted,something that a person would just felt for,

"love" is feeling that a person would just wanted for....

it was not a game,its a really big deal,

it makes us realised how important it is to be a special person,for someone..

it make us notice about the wonderfull world of love..

it cant barely just flew away from our mind like a person that blew a leaf off from their hand..

~end....

the truth being in love

love is a big deal

love just come and go like winds and seasons

love is a feelings that everyone have felt..

love's sometimes come to make us happy,
love sometimes make us proud of ourself's,
but if you ever expect love
it wont come as we expected to..
and if you least expected it,that love will come and barely want's us
love goes around the world..it search for someone special...
special enough to make them feel special
if someone ever felt this thing,the world would be very beutifull,
as it seem's when the first time the earth appear..
it would seem's so comfy and warm
love is one thing that we couldnt ignore

~to be continued...

odd dayy

blablabla..there's many in this world that doesnt know's us best,
than ourselfs...its true..cause nothing know's us best..

today..I planned to go to PIM with my friends,
but as I call them,they didnt answer...
I only want them to help me to buy and make bracelets,
but they,my group,not all of them that show's up,
only 1 person in my group that comes..
and that person was a boy! ugghhh,
I hate them all (my friends,that doesnt show)..
because of THEM,many people think's that we are a couple!
uggghhh..well.. somehow we did buy some of those string to make bracelet's
but the damn finee day,just ruind...
because we meet our "teacher",and I think "she" think's that we are dating...
hahaha,it really sounds VERY WEIRD! haha,
so...nevermindd,than..I met with my old friend,there's 5 of them,
after that I met my Senior's when we are going to search some of the strings again,
than...my best friend,Dante,comes to search for books at gramedia..,than we meet..
I introduce her to my friend..
and than,thats all... haha

it was propably a nice short walk meeting with lots of friend and old friend...
but it also kind a' odd

I hate this lesson

I have to tell you this...


I HATE MANDARIN! the teacher give's us to much homework!
I hate that damn,rude lesson....
uhhh... we have a homework from page 1 until 26..
I've done a half of it,and another half,at least finished untill next year,
aaaa,im stressed! frustated! and now are so confuse


well....at least tomorrow i can have fun..haha
that's all... nothing muchh

sucks

I dont know what to write,my life now sucks,

but I still thanking God for today's blessing..

it has been 1 day we are apart,

nothing special..

a letter for you..

I hate what Ive done,that makes you like this
I doesnt like what you said..
I know.. your free now..
thank you so much,for what we have done together this past month,
I know Im not alowed to cry! but my tears just came out by it own...
I cant really tell the truth to myself now..
I dont want to have someone more special than my family..
it really hurts if than you know you have to get out of their life,
I know its hard (as I said to myself),but life goes on,
it wont be as perfect as a fairytale,it wont go and make a happy ending..
this is my last story that told about us,
I know you said you try to stop this relation,but you didnt say it,
i know you will know how I feel,but at least you can say it to me,
I just want to say...

thank you,you make me smile,

thank you,you try to care for me,

thank you...you make my life more beutifull,even for a while,

thank you for having my back

thank you for believing in me,

thank you for making me more special that time...

it was just like,Im saying thanks to my mum..

but its really..I thank you for all the good things that you've done for me,

Im glad to be yours,even not for a long time,

but when Im with you,I really feels diffrent! you make my day wonderfull..

thank you,for being mine..even for a while

do we hv to be enemy?

I hate what just happend today,

cause the one I care... he said "aaah,shit" (in bahasa).

just right in front of me,.so,its not my mistake if I think he called me that!right?

I was right about..going to talk to my teacher,

but then I heard him said that,I just stop from what Im going to say to my teacher..

than I move back,and hang around with my friends to the cafeteria,

at that time,I noe I was laughing with my friends,but Im not really laughing,

I was sad because he said that words..

I know he was mad,and if he was mad,he can just blow all those bad words..

but I thought even that we are not a couple anymore,we can still be friends!?

I just doesnt know what to do next... but I cant just blew all the memory that we've done together.. I will still be right here,hoping for you to come back..but I know it wouldnt came true

can I have your question?

I think we're over...
you wanted to be like this,
I thought you are faithfull...
but I have to believe,start from now,that no1 could be faithfull
there's so many things I want to ask to you..

even we're not a couple anymore,can we still be friends?

even your there...Im here... can we never be enemy?

even you like someone else,and you are begging for her,can I still care for you?

can I still hope that we can be together again?

all those question is hard for me to answer it myself.....

than I know.. those answer depends on you

if you just know what i feel right now... I really thank God!

Im right here,between this 2 way

today was full of surprise...
I was so stupid to know about all this thing..its to late
he ask about that from yesterday..but because he asked when I was sleepy,
i didnt think that far,but seriouslyy! IM SO SURPRISED!
I ask him.. is he serious about that?! than he answered.... he is serious!
ohh.. I was.. like.. going crazy,at that moment!
my head was like twirling around,and the world was upside down!

and the bad news is.... I think Im not with "***" anymore..
but I still care for him..
but I doesnt want people to be with me,if they doesnt like to..
thats why.. also at that time,I was sad..as sad as I was,
my friends was there to help me,
so once again.. they make me feels happy

bestest ever

Dantee...

you live like a rainbow,

you help me when I need you,

you sacrifice your day for me....

you help me to choose the good way,

even we are not in the same school as usual,

you still supportive,and you always makes me smile!

you are right over there,but for me,you are right here beside me..

even you are not really besides me,your help can always be in my mind!

Stefi...

you always been besides me..

you help me with all the things that I cant do by myself,

you make me smile,you make me laugh with all the crazy things that you do..

you are a very good friend,

you made my day so beutifull with your help,

because of your help,I can smile this large :D

sometimes we complained to each other if we hate a person,even if thats person was

not one of us,but we always be patient,and always agree with what we think!

I write about them in this little blog,just to make everyone knows how I feel being around them,

Im so thankful and lucky for being their bestfriend...!

Thank you my bestfriend... I love you guys

they are my bestest friend...but theres still 2 of my bestfriend was as good as they are..

I should mention..They are: Luna and Stephanie

relaxingg

well...
as usual,I go on with my life..
but today,it seem's diffrent...
I feel more comfortable,this morning,
i go to Sentul mauntain,me and my family was a new group..
we join them to run and find a way back to our place...so from the start to the finish..
up there...we can see a nice view..its very beutifull
because I enjoy seeing the view,I didnt see where I was going,
so i fell about 2 or 3 times...haha,
after we all finish,we all gather around,but
me and my "new" friend and her mother go for 1 more lap,
its so relaxing walking up the mountain,
so its only me that go for the second lap (from all the new runner)
well...Im glad.. haha

thats all folks! hehe,idk what to tell you about my day,today...
all I can say that.. my day today was really fun,and relaxing!
God Bless you guys

Love (?)

ohh! what am I really feeling?!

I hate what I feel but I like what I see..
is this a right time to stand away,and see the future?
thank you so muchh.. for coming
thanks again.. for this thing that you bought it for me
and the last time.. thank you for being so nice,even we've just met
I think your nothing,only a person thats living in a same world as mine,
but after all those things happend..
I think like there's some kind of power that switch me back on,
like a rotten doll,that turns into a one of a kind precious thing that lives here..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

today is so much funn!
today is "SatMare" night! (haha,as we called that so)
well... 7 peoples come.. and those 7 people,that I will invited to my birthday..
and thanks to all that come..
even theres only a few people that come,it feel's like
it was so crowded,because all the people that come
was the funny people,that makes everybody laugh...
we all play pool,watch tv,swimmm,than we watch dvd...
at 7pm of my friend go home,to their own house..
at about 8pmne of my friend have to go home,
and for the last.. at 9pm theres only left the two of my friend,
well..their a boy..but we keep on watching tv after we watch "superhero movie"
at 9 past 5..they all have to go baack to their home,so than I stay awake until 12 pm..
haha,today was very fun

freak

today... today's date was 20..
and as I remembered it was my date of being "his" gf,
but today is not a very special day,I think he doesnt care about these such thing,anymore..
but I had a really quite fun day with my fellows,
they all give me congrats,even they didnt know who's my bf now...
well...luckily I've been happy enough playing and making some plan at my house..
so..the plan is tomorrow me ad my bff are going to make a party,
which is only to ave fun..
no offence..we planned this from the past 2 days..
but even Im having a lot fun with my bestfriends...my heart still dissapointed,
I cant believe what I really think about him,
I thought that he was the one that I really can rely on,
but suddenly he broke my trust,that I gave it to him!

but I think for it for the second time,
is it my fault? can you tell me what Ive done that makes you mad?
Im through it... are you ending it?
aaaaaarrrhhh! its confusing me,I CANT STOP THINKING OF IT!
Im happy but my feelings doesnt include what I feel inside my heart,
even we're apart,I will never forget you,
but Im so so so seriously SORRY forwhat Ive done,that makes you do this to me...

but all these is not a MUCH more important right now,
cause' I do have my friends,
this night Im going o sleep over at Luna's house,
its funn!
thank you guys,my best friend..
thx for having my back and fo keeping me happy!
love you guyss! God Bless You

thank you

Im feeling so lonely...
Im feeling so happy...
suddenly this day has come,
I have to to this,even if its hurt...
cos' you hurt me more!

you block me,

you crashed my life,

you make me believed in you..

you didnt care about me

what a shame! why did I even trust you..

I hate you but I love you,

you lied to me,but I cant let you leave me,

you make me feel so so alive,but you didnt...

so much to do that you hurt me

Im pleasing and begging God for you,

than I have you now,but its so diffrent,

you kill me with your words,

you did all these on purpose...

nothing can mend my broken heart!

you hurt me to much,but thank you for all this time,

Im lucky to have been felt in love with someone thats impossible to be trusted!

Im so lucky! even you hurts me many time..thank you,but its over now

arghhh

oh damn shit!
I hate iiit! I hate this morning and just a few moment ago..
this morning I go up early for PE,but...
my mom.... she is doing what is not important! (for me)
than my brother.. he go up early!
but they know I have to go to school at 6.30,but why did they so stupidd!?
so then when I go to school,I was really late for PE,
so I decided to not join PE,what a damn shitt!

but a moment ago...
my brother was so annoying!
i argue with him because his faults,but I didnt say that everytime we argue is his fault (haha)
I argue with him,because he broke my DS .. even that I dont play with it to much,
but its still my thing,that I should care of,
he broke it! aaaaaaah!
HELL SHIT!
and my mom! I hate her!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrhh

part-part-partyyy!

ohh.. what a funn day,today...
my bff's visit my house and many things that we've done,is fun..!
but theres one personn from my bff's,that doesnt visit my house..
haha! so lamee-oooow! she's to smart to go to my house

@ my house...
we eat some snacks,swim together,eat dinner with noodles (HAHA,weirdd !)
than suddenly at 8.30 or more they all have to go home,
but... because something that we "read"..we planned a party at my house,
some was invited,our party doesnt really have to use dress,
its only planned for having fun,NOT RUSH!
and it will be on this Saturdayyy
I barely cant wait for that party,we've planned!
it have to be a damn,crack,fun,silly party

wishh us luck with the partyy!

suddenly..

oh! I've got some bad luck this past day,and now..
I GOT IT AGAIN!
theres a new student at my grade..and it was a he,
first that I tought it will be fun,but it end's up with a diffrent direction..
and again... the shit was getting bigger! I forgot to study for Science test,
and my place has been taken by that NEW student that I shouldnt mention his name..
ohh DAMN!
today is so so so a BAD DAY,for me I thought

DAMN IT! IT JUST BECAME WORST AND WORST AND WORST THAN EVER!
but just keep it low,I should just thank God for what Ive got today,
with my best friend's help's...

Damn,crash flashback

Oh God..

did he ever felt the same way as the way I feel now?

did He seriously in love with me?

did He ment to be with me?

Is He the one that I can count on?

did He going to leave me?

did he care's about me and my feelings?

God,Oh God..

if just He was ment to be with me,please let him stay with me,

If he was just a dream ,a fairytale,dont let me wake up,

If he really are ment to be with me,I appreciate...

but all this... its only a dream come true for a little while

God,its only this one thing that I just cant ignore,

something that I cant have twice...

something that I really proud of.

but all this DAMN thing just blew it away!

to be honest..

Its the first time I feel hurt..

the second time I felt in love,

this is the way I feel..

never in this world that I love more...

but 1 thing and only 2 way to prove it

you can do anything,but dont forget about me,like I said

you can 4get my words,4get my letters,

but dont forget about the one that send does things!

I wrote all these things because flashback,I really missed you

you DISSAPOINTED me

what the hell is going on!
like.. there's 80% people at Pondok Indah Mall was holding hands,wearing the SAME shirt,
and..yes,when I see them... its like a couple just show off...
aaaah!
I feel like I was living in a world by myself..
am I jealous? or what?
Or did I only hate some1,that makes me feel so mad!?
well... I see them celebrating their valentine's day with their beloved at pim,
like...everytime I saw them,it makes me feel so bad..
not only me that hates to see them celebrating it with their beloved,
but there's one of my friend that hates to see that too...

and...
I'd remember what happends yesterday,
when I ask my "beloved" (haha)did he love me or not,
which he doesnt answer,and as what I think the answer is nope...
I m disspaointed,annoyed,feeling left behind, and
very sad because you are unfaithfull..
it really hurts me..!

FAKEntinee

Friday the thirteenth of February...
I hate this day so much...
living alone in a little dust of hell,
making such of weird noises,
where people just blamed us for things that we dont do...
today is a really *U***ng day!
but I do enjoy celebrating Valentine's day with my best friend
I missed my bestest friend...Dante and Ona,I really want to celebrate this year Valentine's with them,but maybe tomorrow we can meet...
today,we watch "JUNO" for our valentine's event at our school,
its fun,but.... even its a little rush,but its still fun
we just get home maybe at 10.. (me,Jessica,Stephanie,and Jerremy)
well... Stephanie sleep's over at my house


Tomorrow..
I have many invitations to celebrate valentine's day..
which is:
1.tea party at my friend'd house at ten until three
2.hanging out with my friend and their boyfriend
3.going to db cup.. ofcourse to see my old friends
4.visiting my aunt house
5.going out with my mom,shopping..

for number 4 and 5 maybe I'll delay it..,
cause' I can celebrate val's day @ my aunt house on Sunday
and number 5,I dont like shopping... so.maybe I'll delay that too..
aaaah! its so tiring... wthhhh!
from all that event,1 thing that I wont miss is number 3!
hehe,that's all.... Have a good day!

Valentine's or FAKEntine's day?

what is it without you at Valentine's day,
I had lost all the precious thing,
you... you let me fly in the sky,
you make me feel like I was really happy,
you make me feel like all this thing was the one that I can be...

its YOU that I want all this time,
its you,my dream come true,
and also you that can make me feel happy,even Im so sad...

what can I do to make you be the one that does all those thing's again?
what can I do to make it up?
Can you show me the path to make you care for me again?
Can you care for me again? Can I have you back?
cause' its only you that I think...
please tell me,do you still care for me or not?

you said you love other girl

Is my happiness only can stay for a moment?
it said out of my head that it always stay only for a moment!
Do I have to feel all this things?
all the happy thing wouldnt last long
Is everything in my life have to be a bad dream?
it wont have to be,it already be
Do I really have to live without you?
it depends on you,and Im hoping I can be with you for a long time

I thought,that all this time I could trust you that you are the one,
I depends on you
but as I thought,I thought I can really rely on you
even I look's happy,but the truth is Im dying....
I cant even trust anybody than you,now I know how difficult it is being in love with someone that I really love,and that "someone" likes someone....
I know Im not perfect as I told you before,
I know Im not your tipe,
Im sorry for what I've done,that make you upset

but THX 2 DANTE! she have my back,she led me to a right way...
also.. all this time my enemy.. airlangga.. he help's me to go on,and stop letting these tears that goes out of my eyes,
thx to them, I know how to protect myself..
Dante...your the best,you always be here,where I need you so much...everytime,you never let me down and been pushed around..
THANK YOU SO MUCH!

SAD or HAPPY?!

great...
that one word that I like to say....
with another few words after that,"how lucky am I?!"
now I liked to say that words with it complete sentence...
"how lucky am I that sum1 that I really care of to lied to me?!"
I feel like Im the luckiest one! that I just want to let my tears out!

I saw you you were holding and calling with your phone..
but before,you said that you doesnt have phone,because it waas broked,
now that I see you lie,
I doesnt really trust you with how you to me,
whatever,the main word for you,saying whatever to me and my feeling's..
you hurt me down,slowly
I cried because that little jerk thing,
what I think is.. that... you lied that you doesnt hv phone
my reason to cry is.. why do you lied?
do you doesnt like me to text you? its FINE!!
I can go along my life without you,even if its hurt..
but I want someone that really care for me...

just that! nothing,...only someone to care for me and my feeling's!

biggest,baddest,saddest dayy eveer

today,I feel like I'm living on a big hot plate!
all I do and see is the very "STUPID" thing...

first,I saw you sitting across me with your phone on your hand,
which you tell me that your phone was broke,and you not yet buy a new one..
it tell's that... you lied to me
I trust you very very much,but let me down with your hand.

if you just know how it hurts... and if you know how I feel,
You will never forgive me,
I doesnt want to argue with you,
I doesnt want you to be mad at me...
one thing that I want you to know...:
I like you...
but you let me down,
it is crushing me,but I stay and be patient..
you hurt's me with all your act,
you make me feel happy,but not long enough,
you push me to the ocean,and leave me...

second part that I hate...:
today is the basketball competition..
I hate my enemies,they play hard,they push,
they scratch,and they try to block us..but in the HARD WAY!

actually,I doesnt really care about winning or lossing..
its about how we play,play to have FUN!

our score maybe more low than our enemies,but how we play...
we play it with fun,not rush like them...
after we finished the competition,one of my friend was hurt,
because


one thing I want to mention in this little blog,
I hate this daaaay! its the worst time of my life!

we HAVE to win! NO MORE stepping back

today,we practice at k.Kania's house
we have to practice basketball,because tomorrow is the competition
but sadly... there's ONLY four people that come and practice today, Its only me,Stefi,k.Alda,and k.Kania (of ocurse)...
at the first time we meet there,we are waiting for k.Alda to come
k.Alda is the team KAPTEN,She is more RESPONSIBLE than our coach..

when k.Alda has arrived,she and k.kania play's the guitar,and sang a song,
after that we go around with a bike,than we go home,and start to learn strategy..
we have learn it from our coach but the strategy from our coach
is not that....umm... ya... like that lah... (hahaha)
our coach doesnt trust us that we can win,
he tell us to defence...how can we win,
if we doesnt work?
I know Im stupid,idiot,ngocol (apalah)
but IM NOT GONNA' PROVE WHAT HE SAID...
that he said we wont win... well... he doesnt say that,
but in reality.. how he tell us to play at the competition is not helping
SO NOT HELPING!!!!
all we have to do is,play with our feeling
and never turned back,NEVEEEEEER!!!

I hate that coach,and I know our school can WIN this thing!
I will show him what we've got! we will prove it to him,that we CAN win!
so guys.. everyone that view's my blog,please...pleaseeee support us,
help us with your prayer,it will be very helping...

thank you,if you guys dont mind,please comment my blog
thx... GBU

yeaaay funn!

yeay,yeay,yeaaaay!
i really enjoy 2day,but there's 2 things i hate....

1. Steph was crying becouse a guy thing... But luckly,she ha been forgived by him..evn if he still a bit grumpy.

2. When i sleep over at Stephanie's house,she left me alone..she left me... She's asleep,and Im still awake! aaaAAA!

Hahaha...but at least there's sum1 that help's me 2 be patient,and its him.... ^_^

And Im sorry 2 not put the reason why Stephanie cried,its privacy... Thx...

Difficulty

school,school,school everyday...
today is a new day,a new chance,and also a new news

what happend's today:
*Luna is getting back with her boyfriend
*Dante support me again
*A new experience
*etc...

and random....

Manda's house
L: let's get something to eat!?
me: okay,where? who else?
L: just the three of us
me: who?
L: us (pointing to me,L,and L)
me:okay2

msn
Mich: tipe cowo lo gimana?
me: *ask me*

msn
kk kls:what r you afraid of?
me: valentine's day
kk kls: why?
me: *blablabla*



and for the rest of my day,I only think about that little thing called Valentine's
seriously... its so difficult to be me!

what way?

what Im thinking today is......

I really want to run from this Valentines!

I dont know why,but sumthin said that there's gonna be sumthin bad

I hope it wont be as bad as I think it will be

I want to RUN from this year valentine's day!

I really want to celebrate it,but really,

as I say before... I feel sumthin bad will happen in that day

and sometimes my feelings are right....

can I run?

but run doesnt help's! I will be very jealous!

Im confusse with this year valentine's day!

which way should I go?
run or do I have to stay and just believe in myself that nothing bad is going to happen!?

its a diffrent story for a diffrent person

today,after school,we were going to Manda's house for practice,
we have a Competition which will be on Monday,9th of February


but...but.... there's a diffrent story...
one of my friend,shocked when we were swimming,
I dont know what's going on,but I feel something is not right
something that NOT everybody can see these thing
something that really diffrent,
even not one can explain what she see
I feel very sorry for her
I hate what she see's! I know its something that is diffrent to explain



I hope that see could get better
I bet! why dont i who see's it??
I dont care how scary it is! but not my friend...
I hate that "thing",that "thing" that disturb my friend!
when Im in that condition,I just feel like I want to say: "FU** OFF!!! DONT DISTURB MY FRIEND"

but me and some of my friend,see what she see's
but I know,God with us.. so no matter how afraid we are,
God never let us down!
its all I do to make me feel's just fine

God bless you

stupiiiIDD

aaaaAAAaaa
my homework is so many for today!
like Crazyy!!
I have so much to do..and i waited for you as well...but you didnt show!
aarrgghhh,how worst is it could be?? aaaAAaa

I fogot to study for tomorrow's English quiz! oh,DAMN
but at least I already do all my homework...
and now...all I have to do is study for my English and Science quiz!
and if I get a low score,I will be very very...ummm... apa yah??? hahaha
IDK dehhh! pokokny ga mauuuuuu!


guysss! wish me luckk yaaaaaaaa! hehe
thx!

thank you so much,MY BESTFRIEND!

today is so weird.... not only my day,but all of YOU were just weird...
you guyz was like.. so diffrent....
is it me,is it the world,or is it you guys that just left me

making me so confuse

Im confuse with your act

Im confuse with all the things you said to me

Im so confuse with your thinking....

Im so so so confuse today,but thanks to my BESTEST FRIEND, Dante
She made me feel like Im so lucky
She made me though with all her opinion
She comforts me... She makes me feel happy,
even when Im soo sad


She was a very best friend,it feels like Im in heaven,
and nothing can replace her in my life!

....God,thank you for giving me a very special,and loving best friend like her....
....She was my bestest friend,God please dont let us apart!....

happy and sad

yesterday was very fun!!! we go to Dufan,we go to meet our Bible teacher,

he's the best! my friends that go along to dufan with me is:
*Stephanie *Jessica *michelle *Laurensia

*k.Gloria *k.Alda *k.Kezia *k.Ode

*k.Kania *k.Maria

we all play many fun games in dufan.... we play
roller coaster,arum jeram,etc...
in that picture,we just finished from playing arum jeram,and its time for our teacher to go home
at that time,we are going to eat,but because me and some of my friends are still full, we go to play another ride,and some go to find some food to eat...

even in that day we doesnt spent so much time with our Bible teacher,we still seems so happy,cause its his final day with us,he is going to be a missionary,

we all wish him good luck and always pray for him...
WE WONT 4GET YOU!
GBU mr.Kim,take care

with love,
pings students.

between 2 diffrent ANSWER

Im so confuse.... i have lots of questions all around my head
this morning when I swim,I just put myy head under water for a few second,
and all that i think is only YOU, Im being in between 2 things
and 2 answer, and I really need to know what your answer was

than today,even Im still confuse with your answer,I think you say "NO"

I know you didnt say that,but what my mind think is... you are giving me up

Im so so so frustated.... I wish everything was gone,out of my mind,and all is left was you,my bestest friend,and my family
I still want you to be in my mind coz' I still love you! you are like.. the best!

but I wish... We would never be apart
*AMIN*

Nightmareee and light

Aaaaaaaaa! I want to screaaaam,as loud as i can and as long as I live...
my day is getting WORST!!! and now.... today... this moment...
my worst nightmare,im fighting with him again.. because of one,small,little,TINY
PROBLEM.... and THAT problem can be solved by talking it... doesnt have to be this RUDE,


and... he said one word that really hurts me inside.... he said that word...
only because that SIMPLE word,I cried
that was SO SILLY! and thanks to my friends,and i should mention their names:
*Stefi *Stephanie *Luna ....
they are really good friends of mine,I trusted them,I will remember this day,not because that WORDS,
but I will remember this day because of my bestfriends helps,

coz' without them,maybe now,i was laying in my bedroom with lots of tears coming out of my eyes..haha
i just want to say:


I LOVE THEM!!!!!! guys,thx for keeping my back