y know what,i have to tell the truth,
that my life-sucks when you go,
i tried my hard as i hurt myself,with being not-myself
i tried to forget about the past,i tried to do anything to forget it..
but now,suddenly,theres someone that told me,he loves me,
and I see from all of he's word.. he did tell me,but once I dont trust him
last time,
He said so.. he ask me if I want to be his "gf",but i ignore it..
than now,in the past Wednesday,He ask me that question again...
and from that I know that He really likes me




but whatever God plan is,
I know what I will answer,I know,start from today,
I have to turn back to my own life,
I wanna be myself again,im gonna' let the past fade away,
I want to clear my life,I need something that can change me,

what is my fault?

Am I stupid?

why are you bullying me eith those words?

WHAT IS MY FAULT? i dont think that I ever did anything wrong to you..

you're friend told me that you think my writings which was "FUCK HIM" means you..

but Im being honest! ITS NOT YOU!

you started these whole thing..

you make me hate you,

you are being so annoying,

can we just stop? I doesnt want to have an enemy like YOU

this thing is ONE thing that I couldnt forget..

today is full of memories...
every minute I think of what I should think when you are right here,being mine..
I really want to get back eith you,I wanted it barely,
because i love you
even if I can tell,that you likes someone else,but my heart
sticks with you,only you..
I m only a big piece of mess!I cant woke up early in the morning,
I can barely think positive,and I cant also stop thinking of you...

can we just get back as we used to?

can you be my bestest person in my whole live world?

can we still be together,like the day we first knew each other?

If God would just give me ONE wish,I would wished that we can be together again..

like the time on that day..I know I loved you,and I know that you're still here,

and I know that my only wished is that,the most important wish...!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

honestly...Im super duper major BORED!

I can describe one feeling about you...

Im bored..you always asks the same question!

like HELL,yeahh...dont you have any ideas beside asking what Im doing??

ohh damn! Im bored to death,if Im damn bad,I would just tell the truth that Im major bored chatting with you...!

Im sorry

I dont,dont,dont even care...

im sorry I have to say "no"..

I know you will,will do the same mistakes like last time...

if you could be a better person,if you could be more caring,

somehow..I'll say "yes",but its enoughh..

I really,really had enough with all those complicated feelings being with you

you doesnt have to force yourself to love me,

I doesnt want any lie..thats all I really need..

is true?or is it only a word?

you.... you once are my everything,
you once are a part of my life...
you once make me feels like I dont need anything but you..
but...
you ONCE hurt me with all those break up words,
and I doesnt want to have that words breaking my tears 4 the second time

you said that you can keep me as a precious thing,
you said Im the only that makes your life easier...
but suddenly,you break me apart,
you make my tears fall from my eyes,
but now,you are begging me to come back to you
and start all of it again..
im confuse,with all your feelings all this time..
you said,that you really care for me..you said you like me because
Im good to you...is it truee??

theres only two answer..
rather its yes,or no..
if I answer yes,Im afraid of you letting me down again,
but if I say no..Im afraid if I will love you back when you didnt
what answer could I choose? that makes me feel free...
is it yes or no??

the truth being in love(2)

love sometimes,we put above everything,
love did exist...
love sometimes stays for a long time,but sometimes it just come and fly away
somewhere they can be free...
it takes time to realized that someone loves you more than you know...
it takes time to say the words "i love you"
it takes places if you really wanted someone that you care for...

'cause love tells what is on our mind

love made us realized how we care for each other,

love need some respect,love could barely hurt us

love oh love...its a big deal that can hurt a person..

love cant be predicted,something that a person would just felt for,

"love" is feeling that a person would just wanted for....

it was not a game,its a really big deal,

it makes us realised how important it is to be a special person,for someone..

it make us notice about the wonderfull world of love..

it cant barely just flew away from our mind like a person that blew a leaf off from their hand..

~end....

the truth being in love

love is a big deal

love just come and go like winds and seasons

love is a feelings that everyone have felt..

love's sometimes come to make us happy,
love sometimes make us proud of ourself's,
but if you ever expect love
it wont come as we expected to..
and if you least expected it,that love will come and barely want's us
love goes around the world..it search for someone special...
special enough to make them feel special
if someone ever felt this thing,the world would be very beutifull,
as it seem's when the first time the earth appear..
it would seem's so comfy and warm
love is one thing that we couldnt ignore

~to be continued...