cried tears

theres alot of changes around me,

you,them,her,him and my new life.

life is not about who you are,its about how you control it,

life is not about riches,not about governing,not about being cool.

life is a journey to where you'll be the one who feels perfect when the other person shows

in your life is your love :)

im here to tell

i met you 3 months ago,you're so gentle,so active,

yet you are so kind and so fun to be with.

you're the very best guy i ever knew,you light me up,you made me believe,

you encourage me every time i need it

i find my self afraid to fall in love,i find my self hiding from what i feel,

and i do 'once' believe that there will be no more love called for me.

but you're here now,

even though we're in a long distance relationship,

i dont mind. i believe in you,and my heart wont judge,my little heart says to me,

if you really love him,why wont you stop worrying?

and my brain start working,then i feel rite here,inside my heart

you're the one that I have been wanting to depend on.

im here to tell you i love you,i love how you say something,how you show you care,

how you show you think of me,and how you really loved me :)

you've been a very very very fun guy,and you said you love me,now we're in a relationship.

how happy am i,you wont believe it.

let me tell you,i dont care what they say about you,i wont care,at all!

i believe in you,but somehow i got to run from the truth,im sorry if i made you angry or anything,but there's still one thing i want you to know.. i want you to know my emotions.

but nobody's perfect,i hope you wont change your feeling to me,i hope we'll last forever,i wont forget what have happened yesterday,20.10.09

and i hope you doesnt play my heart

iloveyouaditya

y know what,i have to tell the truth,
that my life-sucks when you go,
i tried my hard as i hurt myself,with being not-myself
i tried to forget about the past,i tried to do anything to forget it..
but now,suddenly,theres someone that told me,he loves me,
and I see from all of he's word.. he did tell me,but once I dont trust him
last time,
He said so.. he ask me if I want to be his "gf",but i ignore it..
than now,in the past Wednesday,He ask me that question again...
and from that I know that He really likes me




but whatever God plan is,
I know what I will answer,I know,start from today,
I have to turn back to my own life,
I wanna be myself again,im gonna' let the past fade away,
I want to clear my life,I need something that can change me,

what is my fault?

Am I stupid?

why are you bullying me eith those words?

WHAT IS MY FAULT? i dont think that I ever did anything wrong to you..

you're friend told me that you think my writings which was "FUCK HIM" means you..

but Im being honest! ITS NOT YOU!

you started these whole thing..

you make me hate you,

you are being so annoying,

can we just stop? I doesnt want to have an enemy like YOU

this thing is ONE thing that I couldnt forget..

today is full of memories...
every minute I think of what I should think when you are right here,being mine..
I really want to get back eith you,I wanted it barely,
because i love you
even if I can tell,that you likes someone else,but my heart
sticks with you,only you..
I m only a big piece of mess!I cant woke up early in the morning,
I can barely think positive,and I cant also stop thinking of you...

can we just get back as we used to?

can you be my bestest person in my whole live world?

can we still be together,like the day we first knew each other?

If God would just give me ONE wish,I would wished that we can be together again..

like the time on that day..I know I loved you,and I know that you're still here,

and I know that my only wished is that,the most important wish...!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

honestly...Im super duper major BORED!

I can describe one feeling about you...

Im bored..you always asks the same question!

like HELL,yeahh...dont you have any ideas beside asking what Im doing??

ohh damn! Im bored to death,if Im damn bad,I would just tell the truth that Im major bored chatting with you...!

Im sorry

I dont,dont,dont even care...

im sorry I have to say "no"..

I know you will,will do the same mistakes like last time...

if you could be a better person,if you could be more caring,

somehow..I'll say "yes",but its enoughh..

I really,really had enough with all those complicated feelings being with you

you doesnt have to force yourself to love me,

I doesnt want any lie..thats all I really need..

is true?or is it only a word?

you.... you once are my everything,
you once are a part of my life...
you once make me feels like I dont need anything but you..
but...
you ONCE hurt me with all those break up words,
and I doesnt want to have that words breaking my tears 4 the second time

you said that you can keep me as a precious thing,
you said Im the only that makes your life easier...
but suddenly,you break me apart,
you make my tears fall from my eyes,
but now,you are begging me to come back to you
and start all of it again..
im confuse,with all your feelings all this time..
you said,that you really care for me..you said you like me because
Im good to you...is it truee??

theres only two answer..
rather its yes,or no..
if I answer yes,Im afraid of you letting me down again,
but if I say no..Im afraid if I will love you back when you didnt
what answer could I choose? that makes me feel free...
is it yes or no??